Okay, sis, let me ask you something.
You've done the therapy.
The journaling.
The devotionals.
You can explain your patterns better than most people can explain their own job.
So why is it still easier to disappoint yourself than anybody else?
You can know you need to say no and still say yes, then be mad at yourself in the car afterward.
You can know your decision is right and still take it back the second someone looks disappointed.
That's not because you don't get it. You get it. You've just never had a place to practice it.